Holy! I'm tired. Exhausted. But,, nevermind. Thank God Friday's a public holiday! =D I can go home on Thursday! *cheers*
I have no idea what's with the title. But revenge WILL be sweeeeeet X] I want to sleep 'till noon! Just for one day! I've been getting up early at either 5 or 6 since,, I DON'T KNOW WHEN! I need ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!
..:: Sunday ::..
Had to attend the damn dance practice at MaTiC. Lame Shit. Crab moves and monkey show. I don't even know why I was there. We went 'lepak-ing' at the Chocolate shop instead. Really wanted to buy some. But it was too expensive. =(
Yummilicious CHOCs!!!!!!!!!!!! Once we have finished, we spotted a snake! No, not those lurking in the bushes. Some dude brought it to the fun fair. Cute Python! =D
MK with Mr. Python.I dare not post the large size one. For some reason. LOL
Then, rushed home. Movie session with the family @ TS! 2012-ed again. Lol. The world ended twice. "Not again...." =D
The family who places FOOD as the highest priority. You see them, you see food. [Applicable vice versa =P]
..:: Monday ::.. Emo Shit. Don't really know what to type. Hmmmmmmm.
We always pay full attention during Ms. Caren's lecture. But yesterday,,,,,,,, Erm,,,,,,, We did ORIGAMI! =D
JoJo Joel's swan camel with wings!
Papa swan, Mama swan & baby swans! =D And also a flower!
Even though I'm kind of unhappy now, I'll still post about something good. No emo post! No! Anyway, I finally have the time to chillax for a while. I CAN FINALLY SETTLE DOWN! HOLY!Just for thaaat little while. Next week... Coun ass due, Socio Mid-term and Psycho presentation. WEEEEE!!!!! -,-
Finished most of the assignments! Had been busy with asses since last Friday. One more to go! *Cheers* =D
Curently owning an extra-ugly-zombie-face. Puffy eyes & dark circles. Nasty pimples. Haggard look. Dull skin. Zombie-fied! =D -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
..:: Yesterday ::.. 2012 with the Schizos. Conflict betul when buying the tickets. -,- Anyway, it was nice. I rate it 8/10. Will never forget the "Engine, start" XD I didn't like the ending though. It's so........... fairytale-ish. O yea. Start saving 1 billion Euros or build a super chunted high-tech submarine or just kill yourself now. I'll just wait for my maker to take me away. Schizo JoJo Joel's going to build his own 'sampan'. Feel free to join him. [Not to mention Tsunami. Even a one-meter high wave can flip his lil 'sampan' over] =P
..:: Last Monday ::.. Was raining monkeys & donkeys all day long! Umbrellas didn't help AT ALL! We were all drenched and cold. Was forced to attend classes. [Psych Psych *Cough cough*] Was in a dilemma. To attend or not to attend. Due to the pathetic, heavy downpour. And the asses. And the BITCH! At last, I decided to attend WHICH I really, truly, deeply regretted! Attending her class is already a WTF thing. She had to make it worse by showing me her LC-ness. "I said if you did not bring, DON'T attend my class, RIGHT?" Stop with the 'angmoh' accent la! Anyone can do it but not YOU! SHIT YOU! Carrying the Gucci bag only disgraces Gucci. PUH-LEEZ!
TOTALLY FOR YOU, BITCH!! ONE MORE!
O. It means ass hole. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
..:: Last Sunday::.. Dear's bro's 21st Birthday. Partay partay at his house.
Cassidy Tan Ba-Bi & One-Eye Monster. Hmmm. Didn't really do anything there. Played FB. Played Spot The Difference with the-dude-who- claimed-himself-the-most-leng-zai. *Puke* Itu babi pula asyik hilangkan diri. Sibuk layan tetamu. Then, mom came early. =(
..::Last Saturday::.. Erm. So-called partay at Aunt Lin'shouse. Food food food! It's always the good food that brings us all together. =P I actually thought of doing my ass there but ended up playing with the kids. [I know this sounds WRONG] =X
Shen Yi, Kit Yan & I[Ignore the retarded look of mine]
Zombie & Yan
Yan & Retard
Yan & Fat Pig
She's so cute! Lol -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I think my blog is a waste of space in the web. And is blogging a waste of time? Hmmmmm. Delete it?
Hey * look at me. Think back and talk to me. Did I grow up according to plan? And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I want to do? Coz it hurts when you disapprove all along. And now I try hard to make it. I just want to make you proud. I'm never going to be good enough for you. I can't pretend that. I'm alright. And you can't change me. I'm sorry. I can't be perfect. I'm tired of being what you want me to be. Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface. I don't know what you're expecting of me. Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes. Caught in the undertow. Every step that I take is another mistake to you. I've become so numb I can't feel you there. Become so tired so much more aware. I'm becoming this all I want to do. Is be more like me and be less like you. Can't you see that you're smothering me? Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control. Cause everything that you thought I would be Has fallen apart right in front of you. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I said I'm not going to be emo. I said I'm going to be happy no matter what. I said there will only be happy posts. I said........... And now. I just can't.
What's wrong?! What's my offense this time?! I just can't be the perfect person you want me to be. Maybe the day I * is the day you'll truly feel *.
What's wrong with Mozilla? I can't upload pics. Ish. =(
Hmmmm. Anyway, had a yummy yummy dinner with mom yesterday. Japanese food @ Kampachi, Pav. Tokyo Bento!♥Mmmmmmm Love the beef roll OMG! Am so in love with BEEEF recently. =D [Next, Kobe Beef!] =P Thought of going to Angus Steakhouse. Unfortunately, it was closed. =(
Bought a nail polish too! My RED HOT CHILI RED! =D Fortunately, it matches with the current one! Wee! =D Don't have to buy OPI which is damn expensive! Got the base & top coat as well for only 11 bucks. Protect the nails.*Tsk tsk* Don't have to go for another pedi too! Can do it by myself! =D [Of course professionals produce MUCh better quality work]
Weeeee! I've decided. I want to be happy!<-- This sounds dumb I want to be a happy happy person. No matter what. I don't care about what others say anymore. I won't let others affect me. I live in my own world. My happy world. I want to paint my life with all the happy colours! O. Black is still one of my favourite colour though. =D Smie and laugh. Attract all positive energy!
After a deep, long thought, I realised my life ain't that sucky. I make it sucky. I make it worse. Therefore, I'm going to fix it. =) Add colours and happiness to my life.
My 2010 resolution is to be an optimistic person! [I need time to change] I admit that I didn't give myself a chance to change.
Ms Caren is right. Carl Roger's theory is right. Why focus on the bad stuff? When you focus more on the good stuff, the bad one tends to recede. Isn't that great? Happiness & laughter are contagious. I always show my sour and emo face. I know. So bloody annoying. I know that it's actually making the people around me suffer. When I'm always unhappy, those around me won't be able to pull a smile. [Those who really care about me, I mean] Those who don't, God knows. So.......... Why not?
Hmmmmm... Currently going GAGA!~~ Not Lady Gaga. Gaga Gaga. Omg. This proves it........ Assignments are driving me nuts! Gee. Faced the monitor for hours & my wrist is aching now. =( I have to finish everything by today. Latest tomorrow. Aiks. One down, 2 more to go. Having a hard time doing Sociology. No idea how to crap the examples. But,,, nevermind. I can do it. Don't care if I have eye bags, dark circles or nasty pimples [which I already have], I must finish everything! Counseling Test next Monday. Plus, our timetable is packed. Seriously PACKED! Like sardine in a can! Monday 9-10, 10-12, 12-1.30, 2-4 & 4-5.30! "At the end of the day"*cough cough*, we'll collapse & go ZZZ. Wednesdays are supposed to be FREEE but we have replacement classes. Lots of them. Ms Caren said she owes us 5 classes! Holy! Wee!!!!! Fun!! ~_~
O! I want to add something!
How to be a self-actualized person 1. You have to have an 'angmoh' slang. 2. You must at least get a "MAsters". *Say it with the 'angmoh' slang & emphasize on the A* 3. You have to as arrogant as possible. 4. You have to walk as if your feet weigh a tonne & make the sound *tap tap tap* with your sandals/shoes/whatever. 5. You don't have to have good teaching skills. If someone asks you to explain some terms/theory, just say "Check it our yourself!". 6. Pick on people & be as harsh as you can on them.
See! It's so easy to adopt the characteristics of a self-actualized person! =P Okay okay. I'm just joking. This is just to tell you how baaaaaad my * lecturer is. Sarcastic right? Lalala~ Don't care. I'm proven to be sarcastic. We did a personality test during Psycho lesson & thanks to JoJo Joel & Kit, I'm a sarcastic person. They tick me 'rebellious' as well! =[ But I certainly am NOT sly!! -,-
Anyway, back to my assignments! From now on, there will only be happy posts! Ass Ass! I'm doing it happily! =D See! My first step to becoming an optimist! =D *cheers*
What's with people nowadays? Don't they have a slight sense of humanity? Mercy? Sympathy? People are just pure evil. Insensitive. Unthoughtful. They don't give a shit about how others feel.They don't give a shit if they hurt someone's feelings. What do they care about? Selfish. Self-centered.
Insult. Humiliate. That's what humans tend to do. That's their hobby. They feel great after they have belittled someone else. They insult to feel superior. They think they're so great. As a matter of fact, ......................................... [Sadly, that includes close friends.] Sometimes, I wish I didn't have to deal with humans. Why am I even a human? Dealing with animals seems like a MUCH better option. I'd rather be an ant even if I have to be killed, crushed, stepped or whatever shit. I don't care. Or I should be a pig! Life of a pig is all about eating, sleeping & getting slaughtered. It's far more blissful to be a human. Humans are the most evil creature on planet earth. There are too many of them. And earth should be destroyed. Fortunately, it's happening soon. Cruelty stops then. [Seeing a human die is better than seeing an animal die.]
Those who rape or murder like Jack the Ripper & commit all brutal crimes.... Those physical crimes........... They don't hurt much. At least the victims are really dead & they don't have to feel the pain anymore. And the pain only occurs once. But words... Words used by people are the most savage, cruel, crude, unsympathetic, ruthless way of killing someone. Of course people won't be physically dead but those words..... They're like deadly knives that scrape your heart until one day, your heart feels so numb. You have to live with the pain and you can't just die. You only wish you were. You feel worthless. Belittled. Mentally ill. What will people say then? You're crazy. It's all your own fault. You think too much. But how much do they know? NONE.
And then you try to hint everyone. But what crosses their minds is, "It's just another complaint & emo moment of hers. Let it be" or "Aah, whatever. Bull shit". They even attack more! It's just so disappointing! Can't you all just pretend that I'm invisible?! Oh yea. Of course not coz I'm too fat & obvious!
Yea. After all this bull shit that I have typed, one thing will cross your mind. "YOU WERE MEAN TO PEOPLE TOO". But do you even ACTUALLY know why I do this?! If they hadn't started it, I wouldn't have adopted this behaviour. Or maybe, "WHY ARE YOU MAKING SMALL MATTERS BIG?!". Sometimes, an issue might not seem so important to someonebut it IS to another. To those who don't read my blog, that would be GREAT! I can say FUCK YOU! Nah, to whoever.... You don't even know if I'm talking about you.
I didn't give a damn about what people say back then. But after years of accumulation, my level of patience & acceptance are up to its limit. I want to learn to pick up those that I want to to hear & ignore insensitive words. Can I? Can I just succumb without anyone knowing?Can I just be invisible?Can we just live without judging each other? Can I go to a place where there are no humans?Can they just stop saying those mean stuff to me? Don't even bother asking me what the prob is. Yea yea.It's all rubbish.Exaggeration.I'm psychotic. Better yet, leave me alone.
Yeay! Just finished my dinner with mom at Canton-i, Gardens. Dim Sum Dim Sum! The 'Siew Mai' ain't that nice compared to the van's. LOL
Piggy Bun! ♥
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ..::Saturday::.. Went out with Mr. C. ♥ Watched The Time Traveler's Wife. Nice! Sad sad story but somehow unrealistic. Hmmmm. The angmoh beside me kept crying and crying and crying. All I heard throughout the movie was *sobs, sobs , sobs*. Crying man. Aww. Okay whatever.
..::Sunday::.. Visited the Grands. Actually planned to go to Ikano coz mom wanted to get her Gucci bags cleaned. Ended up at Chili's, Bangsar instead due to the heavy traffic near Ikano.
Southwestern Grilled Lamb.
It was okay but I find Monte's Charbroil much better.
Fajitas Trio.
Beef, chicken, prawns and veges. Comes with some sort of Mexican Pita Bread and dressings.
Headed to Cold Storage after food.Don't know why my dad loves to go there.Yea. Better quality stuff. =D
Halloweeny Pumpkins! Cute! =D
Huh? You're looking at me?! Wanna fight?!
Like doh! Come laaa!! -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------..::Tuesday::.. 'Soul Tee' day. Before entering Counseling class, we snapped some pics. Well, Fishy forced us. -,- 'Give face' coz we were all wearing our 'Soul Tee'. LOL JoJo, Devil K, Tyan Yap, Cutie Mun.
JoJo looks so GURLY!!!!!!! The 3 Gurls 1 Guy gang lives on and passed on from one generation to another!!
I ♥ this semester's Counseling classes! Lots of practical! First, we did a Counseling session on our own friend. Tyan and I counseled each other. We had to pick symbols that represent our family. That particular lesson was kind of emotional. Some cried. Some felt better. Some relieved. Some felt worse. Well, I held back my tears and tried to control my emotions. Didn't want to burst out crying and getting all emotional the whole day.
Then next was the Thematic Apperception Test [TAT]. A set black & white pictures were given to us. We had to tell stories about the pics to our partners. Good or bad stories? You decide. YOU give meaning to it. All of them are people from the 18th-19th century. Love those pictures. Projects so many meanings. Different meanings.
And this week, we did the erm......I don't know what that was. But we had to make a box using the art block. So, we were in the process of making the box.
TADAA!
Fishy & Leon. LOL
And then we had to cut out pictures and words from some old magazines & paste it on the outside & inside of the box. What's outside represents the face/mask that we present to the world. Or what we wish to be. And what's inside? You know what. The Shadow. X]
Done! Mine's with the word "FIGHT".Don't really know why I pasted that.
Foodie Foodie!
Hmmm
What did I paste on the inside of the box? That's a secret that I'll never tell. XOXO. LOL. Wtf. That's SO GG. Wee!!!!! Going to get it from Sharon!
LOL! JiaJia's. Pour some ashes into the box, shove in 3 joss sticks & you know what!
Next activity, Rorschach Inkblot Test [RIT]. Water colour! Can't wait! XD It's like we all traveled back in time to our primary school ages. =)
JoJo drew this. -,- Because of the FB quiz [How well do you know me]. One of the questions was like, I secretly would like to be a ____ for a day. He picked LION! -,- After our Sociology lecture, when we were getting ready to dash back for a nice, relaxing bath & a good rest,,,,,, some of our seniors came in & told us that they're doing an experiment on the effects of frequent exposure to violent movies on the level of desensitization & emotional reactions.
HORROR MOVIE! OMG!
Of course, we stayed back to watch it! =D The title was 'Hostel'! DAN DAN DAN DAAAN!~ Aiyo, nothing scary at ALL. Not about ghosts. This movie, --> Sex, obscene scenes, nudity, tits, asses, stupidity, blood, body parts, human trafficking, cruelty, heartless, hilarious, psychotic, suicide, chop chop chop...... The words 'fuck' & 'fucking' are uncountable. It was like "Fucking this, Fucking that!" And also lots of "fucking" going on. Lol. You watch, you pay! DAMN HEIGHTENED! You'll feel the euphoria when you watch it! High betul. XD Oopssssssssss. [I DON'T MEAN THE SEX SCENES OKAY!] It's the parts where these maniacs kidnap people & chop them into pieces. These NAKED HOT CHICKS in Slovakia lure these foreigners into it. They get $$ for doing that! Even the choppers! Wee!! I want to chop some fingers too!!!! Btw, it has nothing to do with the hostel! I mean, there's something connected but, still it didn't really take place in the hostel. Lol.
What's most important is the FREE SNACKS!
TyanTyan, MinMin *shudders*, RenRen, HaoHao and SentSent. *GOOSEBUMPS* Don't call me LiLi! -,-
SHOW TIME SHOW TIME!! =DMust watch! There's also Part II!
OMG! I'm so addicted to GD's Butterfly ♥ The MV is cute! =D
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Things are meaningless until you give meaning to it. This is so true. It's not the thing or the situation that happened matters. It's how you perceive it. No matter how bad a situation is, we can look at the brighter side of it. Laugh it off and take it as a life lesson. But sometimes, it's only easy to say. Having the courage to do and adopt this optimistic behaviour is difficult. Perhaps I take everything or shall I say every word too personally. Yea, even though sometimes they don't mean it. NO. Mean it or not, I still take it seriously & P-E-R-S-O-N-A-L-L-Y. Whenever Ms Caren mentions the word "only child", people tend to look and point their finger at me. Excuse me, whether it is a bad intention or whatever I feel discriminated okay! And stop calling me a baby!!!!!! -,- Yea yea.According to Adler's Theory of Birth Order, the only child is always the center of attention, spoiled & can be self-centered. Urgh! Helloo!! I didn't choose to go this way alright! Too much attention? Checked. [I obviously didn't beg my parents for this] Spoiled? Checked. [But I'm not as demanding as other people okay] Self-centered??! Hell NO! [But in some situations, I have to be selfish in order to save myself from being more miserable]
But I agree with some of the points mentioned in his theory. =( Being the only child, they miss out on the social skills learned by sibling interaction, so they may find it difficult to share or compromise & less effective in relationships. This proposed relationship results in poorer mental health. =( HOWEVER, a great positive trait is that they can be very mature intellectually. [Don't play play]
Surveys of literature predating 1945 emphasized the abnormality of only children's familial situation and risk of lifelong unhappiness and psychopathology. =( However it was acknowledged that not much research followed individuals into adult life to determine if possible effects of being raised as a sole child has any lasting consequences. [HAH! >.>] Some research indicates that only children who attempt to fulfill all their parents' expectations are retarded in developing adulthood autonomy and are less independent than any other birth order. This may be especially true of female only children who are traditionally expected to be more involved with their parents across the lifespan. -,-
Okay okay. Stop hitting myself with the bad stuff. Time to sleep. Got a date with the pig tomorrow. But someone asyik Korean gurls Korean Gurls ajer. Hmph! I have Korean guys also. Tae Yang! Hot Hot Hot! *scream* Okay. Enough. Chiao.
I feel so tired. I feel restless. I feel useless. I feel old. I feel my spirit fading day by day. I feel spiritless. I feel like a dead body. I feel like life is merely a struggle. I don't have the energy to do anything. I am not motivated. I get frustrated over something easily. I annoy everyone. I bore everyone.
Everyone's irritated. Exasperated. -------------------------------------------------- High expectations. Extra effort. Work hard or lose it all. Regret is not entertained. Fear. It's pressure. -------------------------------------------------- People. Faces. Genuine. Fake. Pompousness. Selfishness. Unthoughtful. Attention. Differences. Gossips. Never judge a book by its cover. Some act superior. Some control. Some attack. Some retaliate. Some hide. Some judge. Some act. I'm behind a mask and shall never reveal. I insult to defend. It's not my intention. Sorry to those offended. -------------------------------------------------- Words kill. Offended. They didn't know. -------------------------------------------------- As for now, I'll act stupid and shut my mouth until I have to open it. Oh wait. I always keep my mouth shut. Don't I? Hmmmmmm. Annoying? -------------------------------------------------- Define LIFE.
Here comes the complains again. If you can't stand it, leave.
After 2 days of suffering in the dorm, I finally get to go out! First of all, the quality of the food in the hostel's canteen is definitely deteriorating! As in REALLY sucky. Doing their job with zero quality. The dust in my room is causing my allergies to attack again. [Even after cleaning, the dust is still there] So now, I'm sneezing the shit out of me and the dustbin is full of my *! My nose is on a marathon yo!
And one thing I hate the most is the filthy bathroom! EEEWWWWW!!!! Dirt and hair everywhere! Which grosses me the most!
Seriously, I hate seeing strands of tangled hair especially on wet floor. Totally disgusting! Even when I'm wearing my flip flops, I just couldn't step on it. GROSS.
Hair. Which means I also hate wig. After watching a movie called 'The Wig', wigs freak me out even more. [Michelle Yap, where's my DVD huh?] Hair extensions are worse! Wigs and extensions makes me puke! Yea. Psychotic. SO!
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So, today's the first day of Co-cu. It was okay. It was kind of fun. But hell lot of confusion! [If you know what I mean] LOL But someone kind of D. =[ By the way, Wednesdays are my off days. No boring classes! *Cheers*
Okay, I know. I'm always complaining and complaining about the hostel and mostly about everything. BUT! I don't give a damn about it! I have the rights right? WHAT-ever.....
Okay, so here I am. Going online at Startbucks, Borders @ Gardens. Peaceful enviroment. Quiet and you can actually feel serenity here. Syok-ness. =D
Mom and I had pedicure @ Nail Studio before dinner. My first time, of course. I didn't want to do it previously because I was damn afraid of people touching my feet. [Another psycho behaviour of mine] I hate it. But after trying it, it was okay actually. Not that ticklish. LOL!
Diggin' something out. Yeaaa. Gross. Farny laaa.
Looks like the one before but this is even red. RED HOT CHILLI RED! Oo! The massage was good by the way!
Drawing the white rose on mom's big fat toe. =D
Lol. Sama-sama red red.
After that, Japanese food @ Yuzu. YUM!
Chawamushi! FAV! ♥
Steamboat!!
Nice! Only mushrooms, vege, tofu, fish and carrots! Simple, clear & satisfying.
The soup was the best! ♥
Green Tea Ice Cream! Double YUM! ♥♥
Next, Kampachi @ Pavillion. Or Angus Steak House perhaps? Both. =D
Have I gone cuckoo? Why did I join that club? What has gotten into me? Omg! There's no turning back. Even if there is way, I don't know how?! =O Fat people like me don't *. Imagine a pig *. No way! I'll be the laughing stock. Like seriously. People went *speechless* when I said I decided to join *. Bad sign. It must be like "WTF! You join *!" If it isn't for that 2 god damn credit hours, I wouldn't join ANYTHING! Maybe I should have joined * instead. Omg. She's going to kill me if she reads this. *If you know who you are* >< Chill. We'll go through it somehow? O.o? Hmmmm.
Sometimes Most of the time I feel like I always make the wrong decision, in any aspect. I always pick the wrong thing! Wrong choice, wrong stuff!Especially while shopping. It's like something else possessed me and lead me to buy stuff that I tend to regret later on. Why?! Damn stupid. Shopping is a DANGEROUS activity for the poor, like me! Therefore, I've decided to restrict myself from buying stuff. It's not like I can find the size of the clothes that I adore. Never going to shop for clothes. At least not-so-perfect-figure people can pamper themselves with pretty shoes. I can't! =[ No clothes, no shoes! What a great life?!
I didn't really shop for months until yesterday! Woohoo! That's a great accomplishment! Hmm. I've never been a shopoholic anyway. But this means I have been wearing the same outfits for months. Years! Disastrous!Nahhh. I don't really care about fashion. Never my passion. I don't have the will and CASH to keep myself updated with the latest trends. Plus, there's no way I can fit into the latest & coolest garment, right? Agreed. It's always those comfy jeans and tee. Shorts sometimes. Always casual. What a passé, ay?! No. Conventional I would say.
Anyway, I just bought a pair of flatties. No biggie. I had to coz my other two pair of sandals have opened their mouth! HORRIBLE! See. How poor I am! =[ Poverty-stricken. Okay not that serious. But still, I'm poor. =[ Anyway, I need comfy flatties due to my oh-so-pathetic big feet! Need to seek therapy. -,- For more sensible and virtuous decision making skills. Gosh! Pathetic much. Counseling student asking for professional help. Erm, we're humans too, right?
*cough cough* Gone too far. Back to main topic. Well, as for this case, I hope I've made the right choice. I don't want to make a fool out of myself. Please.
Yada yada. Today, stayed at home once again. It's exasperatingly tedious and monotonous you know! I mean like DAMN! My life pattern is like ---------------------------- while others are like ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
First week of Sem 2 is like. It's like. HELL! Excruciating! ✖ Classes canceled on the first day! As expected. ✖ Blur lecturer. ✖ Lecturer who can't get her mouth to shut. ✖ Self-declared holiday. =X *Okay not so hell but hell* Don't get it? Never mind.
I'm supposed to switch back to the study mode. But why is everyone still on holiday mode? That includes me. Even though I don't fancy holidays. Unless I have interesting stuff to do.
What else? O yea! Damn SSH! Always altering the timetable! HELL-o! Don't you have a system?! What if I've signed up for Cocu and the TT changed and one of the classes clashes with Cocu?! O wait! That could happen! =X *Touchwood* I'm going to fuck them up if this really happens. For as long as I've been living on this planet, I've never been lucky in all these. There'll always be a problem for me. Thank you. Mom always blames me for being so emotional and her so-called-gothic-attitude. She said I'm always attracting negative energy, inviting evil and that's the reason why I'm always unlucky in everything I do. Uh hellooo! Urgh! I'm speechless.
I have crapped enough. Back to my chores. Life! At least I'm going out tomorrow! Sorority Row with the kid! =D Think of the bright side. Be positive. Cheer up! Chill Devil. Keep your horns.
Holy! I'm tired. Exhausted. But,, nevermind. Thank God Friday's a public holiday! =D I can go home on Thursday! *cheers*
I have no idea what's with the title. But revenge WILL be sweeeeeet X] I want to sleep 'till noon! Just for one day! I've been getting up early at either 5 or 6 since,, I DON'T KNOW WHEN! I need ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!
..:: Sunday ::..
Had to attend the damn dance practice at MaTiC. Lame Shit. Crab moves and monkey show. I don't even know why I was there. We went 'lepak-ing' at the Chocolate shop instead. Really wanted to buy some. But it was too expensive. =(
Yummilicious CHOCs!!!!!!!!!!!! Once we have finished, we spotted a snake! No, not those lurking in the bushes. Some dude brought it to the fun fair. Cute Python! =D
MK with Mr. Python.I dare not post the large size one. For some reason. LOL
Then, rushed home. Movie session with the family @ TS! 2012-ed again. Lol. The world ended twice. "Not again...." =D
The family who places FOOD as the highest priority. You see them, you see food. [Applicable vice versa =P]
..:: Monday ::.. Emo Shit. Don't really know what to type. Hmmmmmmm.
We always pay full attention during Ms. Caren's lecture. But yesterday,,,,,,,, Erm,,,,,,, We did ORIGAMI! =D
JoJo Joel's swan camel with wings!
Papa swan, Mama swan & baby swans! =D And also a flower!
Even though I'm kind of unhappy now, I'll still post about something good. No emo post! No! Anyway, I finally have the time to chillax for a while. I CAN FINALLY SETTLE DOWN! HOLY!Just for thaaat little while. Next week... Coun ass due, Socio Mid-term and Psycho presentation. WEEEEE!!!!! -,-
Finished most of the assignments! Had been busy with asses since last Friday. One more to go! *Cheers* =D
Curently owning an extra-ugly-zombie-face. Puffy eyes & dark circles. Nasty pimples. Haggard look. Dull skin. Zombie-fied! =D -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
..:: Yesterday ::.. 2012 with the Schizos. Conflict betul when buying the tickets. -,- Anyway, it was nice. I rate it 8/10. Will never forget the "Engine, start" XD I didn't like the ending though. It's so........... fairytale-ish. O yea. Start saving 1 billion Euros or build a super chunted high-tech submarine or just kill yourself now. I'll just wait for my maker to take me away. Schizo JoJo Joel's going to build his own 'sampan'. Feel free to join him. [Not to mention Tsunami. Even a one-meter high wave can flip his lil 'sampan' over] =P
..:: Last Monday ::.. Was raining monkeys & donkeys all day long! Umbrellas didn't help AT ALL! We were all drenched and cold. Was forced to attend classes. [Psych Psych *Cough cough*] Was in a dilemma. To attend or not to attend. Due to the pathetic, heavy downpour. And the asses. And the BITCH! At last, I decided to attend WHICH I really, truly, deeply regretted! Attending her class is already a WTF thing. She had to make it worse by showing me her LC-ness. "I said if you did not bring, DON'T attend my class, RIGHT?" Stop with the 'angmoh' accent la! Anyone can do it but not YOU! SHIT YOU! Carrying the Gucci bag only disgraces Gucci. PUH-LEEZ!
TOTALLY FOR YOU, BITCH!! ONE MORE!
O. It means ass hole. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
..:: Last Sunday::.. Dear's bro's 21st Birthday. Partay partay at his house.
Cassidy Tan Ba-Bi & One-Eye Monster. Hmmm. Didn't really do anything there. Played FB. Played Spot The Difference with the-dude-who- claimed-himself-the-most-leng-zai. *Puke* Itu babi pula asyik hilangkan diri. Sibuk layan tetamu. Then, mom came early. =(
..::Last Saturday::.. Erm. So-called partay at Aunt Lin'shouse. Food food food! It's always the good food that brings us all together. =P I actually thought of doing my ass there but ended up playing with the kids. [I know this sounds WRONG] =X
Shen Yi, Kit Yan & I[Ignore the retarded look of mine]
Zombie & Yan
Yan & Retard
Yan & Fat Pig
She's so cute! Lol -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I think my blog is a waste of space in the web. And is blogging a waste of time? Hmmmmm. Delete it?
Hey * look at me. Think back and talk to me. Did I grow up according to plan? And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I want to do? Coz it hurts when you disapprove all along. And now I try hard to make it. I just want to make you proud. I'm never going to be good enough for you. I can't pretend that. I'm alright. And you can't change me. I'm sorry. I can't be perfect. I'm tired of being what you want me to be. Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface. I don't know what you're expecting of me. Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes. Caught in the undertow. Every step that I take is another mistake to you. I've become so numb I can't feel you there. Become so tired so much more aware. I'm becoming this all I want to do. Is be more like me and be less like you. Can't you see that you're smothering me? Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control. Cause everything that you thought I would be Has fallen apart right in front of you. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I said I'm not going to be emo. I said I'm going to be happy no matter what. I said there will only be happy posts. I said........... And now. I just can't.
What's wrong?! What's my offense this time?! I just can't be the perfect person you want me to be. Maybe the day I * is the day you'll truly feel *.
What's wrong with Mozilla? I can't upload pics. Ish. =(
Hmmmm. Anyway, had a yummy yummy dinner with mom yesterday. Japanese food @ Kampachi, Pav. Tokyo Bento!♥Mmmmmmm Love the beef roll OMG! Am so in love with BEEEF recently. =D [Next, Kobe Beef!] =P Thought of going to Angus Steakhouse. Unfortunately, it was closed. =(
Bought a nail polish too! My RED HOT CHILI RED! =D Fortunately, it matches with the current one! Wee! =D Don't have to buy OPI which is damn expensive! Got the base & top coat as well for only 11 bucks. Protect the nails.*Tsk tsk* Don't have to go for another pedi too! Can do it by myself! =D [Of course professionals produce MUCh better quality work]
Weeeee! I've decided. I want to be happy!<-- This sounds dumb I want to be a happy happy person. No matter what. I don't care about what others say anymore. I won't let others affect me. I live in my own world. My happy world. I want to paint my life with all the happy colours! O. Black is still one of my favourite colour though. =D Smie and laugh. Attract all positive energy!
After a deep, long thought, I realised my life ain't that sucky. I make it sucky. I make it worse. Therefore, I'm going to fix it. =) Add colours and happiness to my life.
My 2010 resolution is to be an optimistic person! [I need time to change] I admit that I didn't give myself a chance to change.
Ms Caren is right. Carl Roger's theory is right. Why focus on the bad stuff? When you focus more on the good stuff, the bad one tends to recede. Isn't that great? Happiness & laughter are contagious. I always show my sour and emo face. I know. So bloody annoying. I know that it's actually making the people around me suffer. When I'm always unhappy, those around me won't be able to pull a smile. [Those who really care about me, I mean] Those who don't, God knows. So.......... Why not?
Hmmmmm... Currently going GAGA!~~ Not Lady Gaga. Gaga Gaga. Omg. This proves it........ Assignments are driving me nuts! Gee. Faced the monitor for hours & my wrist is aching now. =( I have to finish everything by today. Latest tomorrow. Aiks. One down, 2 more to go. Having a hard time doing Sociology. No idea how to crap the examples. But,,, nevermind. I can do it. Don't care if I have eye bags, dark circles or nasty pimples [which I already have], I must finish everything! Counseling Test next Monday. Plus, our timetable is packed. Seriously PACKED! Like sardine in a can! Monday 9-10, 10-12, 12-1.30, 2-4 & 4-5.30! "At the end of the day"*cough cough*, we'll collapse & go ZZZ. Wednesdays are supposed to be FREEE but we have replacement classes. Lots of them. Ms Caren said she owes us 5 classes! Holy! Wee!!!!! Fun!! ~_~
O! I want to add something!
How to be a self-actualized person 1. You have to have an 'angmoh' slang. 2. You must at least get a "MAsters". *Say it with the 'angmoh' slang & emphasize on the A* 3. You have to as arrogant as possible. 4. You have to walk as if your feet weigh a tonne & make the sound *tap tap tap* with your sandals/shoes/whatever. 5. You don't have to have good teaching skills. If someone asks you to explain some terms/theory, just say "Check it our yourself!". 6. Pick on people & be as harsh as you can on them.
See! It's so easy to adopt the characteristics of a self-actualized person! =P Okay okay. I'm just joking. This is just to tell you how baaaaaad my * lecturer is. Sarcastic right? Lalala~ Don't care. I'm proven to be sarcastic. We did a personality test during Psycho lesson & thanks to JoJo Joel & Kit, I'm a sarcastic person. They tick me 'rebellious' as well! =[ But I certainly am NOT sly!! -,-
Anyway, back to my assignments! From now on, there will only be happy posts! Ass Ass! I'm doing it happily! =D See! My first step to becoming an optimist! =D *cheers*
What's with people nowadays? Don't they have a slight sense of humanity? Mercy? Sympathy? People are just pure evil. Insensitive. Unthoughtful. They don't give a shit about how others feel.They don't give a shit if they hurt someone's feelings. What do they care about? Selfish. Self-centered.
Insult. Humiliate. That's what humans tend to do. That's their hobby. They feel great after they have belittled someone else. They insult to feel superior. They think they're so great. As a matter of fact, ......................................... [Sadly, that includes close friends.] Sometimes, I wish I didn't have to deal with humans. Why am I even a human? Dealing with animals seems like a MUCH better option. I'd rather be an ant even if I have to be killed, crushed, stepped or whatever shit. I don't care. Or I should be a pig! Life of a pig is all about eating, sleeping & getting slaughtered. It's far more blissful to be a human. Humans are the most evil creature on planet earth. There are too many of them. And earth should be destroyed. Fortunately, it's happening soon. Cruelty stops then. [Seeing a human die is better than seeing an animal die.]
Those who rape or murder like Jack the Ripper & commit all brutal crimes.... Those physical crimes........... They don't hurt much. At least the victims are really dead & they don't have to feel the pain anymore. And the pain only occurs once. But words... Words used by people are the most savage, cruel, crude, unsympathetic, ruthless way of killing someone. Of course people won't be physically dead but those words..... They're like deadly knives that scrape your heart until one day, your heart feels so numb. You have to live with the pain and you can't just die. You only wish you were. You feel worthless. Belittled. Mentally ill. What will people say then? You're crazy. It's all your own fault. You think too much. But how much do they know? NONE.
And then you try to hint everyone. But what crosses their minds is, "It's just another complaint & emo moment of hers. Let it be" or "Aah, whatever. Bull shit". They even attack more! It's just so disappointing! Can't you all just pretend that I'm invisible?! Oh yea. Of course not coz I'm too fat & obvious!
Yea. After all this bull shit that I have typed, one thing will cross your mind. "YOU WERE MEAN TO PEOPLE TOO". But do you even ACTUALLY know why I do this?! If they hadn't started it, I wouldn't have adopted this behaviour. Or maybe, "WHY ARE YOU MAKING SMALL MATTERS BIG?!". Sometimes, an issue might not seem so important to someonebut it IS to another. To those who don't read my blog, that would be GREAT! I can say FUCK YOU! Nah, to whoever.... You don't even know if I'm talking about you.
I didn't give a damn about what people say back then. But after years of accumulation, my level of patience & acceptance are up to its limit. I want to learn to pick up those that I want to to hear & ignore insensitive words. Can I? Can I just succumb without anyone knowing?Can I just be invisible?Can we just live without judging each other? Can I go to a place where there are no humans?Can they just stop saying those mean stuff to me? Don't even bother asking me what the prob is. Yea yea.It's all rubbish.Exaggeration.I'm psychotic. Better yet, leave me alone.
Yeay! Just finished my dinner with mom at Canton-i, Gardens. Dim Sum Dim Sum! The 'Siew Mai' ain't that nice compared to the van's. LOL
Piggy Bun! ♥
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ..::Saturday::.. Went out with Mr. C. ♥ Watched The Time Traveler's Wife. Nice! Sad sad story but somehow unrealistic. Hmmmm. The angmoh beside me kept crying and crying and crying. All I heard throughout the movie was *sobs, sobs , sobs*. Crying man. Aww. Okay whatever.
..::Sunday::.. Visited the Grands. Actually planned to go to Ikano coz mom wanted to get her Gucci bags cleaned. Ended up at Chili's, Bangsar instead due to the heavy traffic near Ikano.
Southwestern Grilled Lamb.
It was okay but I find Monte's Charbroil much better.
Fajitas Trio.
Beef, chicken, prawns and veges. Comes with some sort of Mexican Pita Bread and dressings.
Headed to Cold Storage after food.Don't know why my dad loves to go there.Yea. Better quality stuff. =D
Halloweeny Pumpkins! Cute! =D
Huh? You're looking at me?! Wanna fight?!
Like doh! Come laaa!! -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------..::Tuesday::.. 'Soul Tee' day. Before entering Counseling class, we snapped some pics. Well, Fishy forced us. -,- 'Give face' coz we were all wearing our 'Soul Tee'. LOL JoJo, Devil K, Tyan Yap, Cutie Mun.
JoJo looks so GURLY!!!!!!! The 3 Gurls 1 Guy gang lives on and passed on from one generation to another!!
I ♥ this semester's Counseling classes! Lots of practical! First, we did a Counseling session on our own friend. Tyan and I counseled each other. We had to pick symbols that represent our family. That particular lesson was kind of emotional. Some cried. Some felt better. Some relieved. Some felt worse. Well, I held back my tears and tried to control my emotions. Didn't want to burst out crying and getting all emotional the whole day.
Then next was the Thematic Apperception Test [TAT]. A set black & white pictures were given to us. We had to tell stories about the pics to our partners. Good or bad stories? You decide. YOU give meaning to it. All of them are people from the 18th-19th century. Love those pictures. Projects so many meanings. Different meanings.
And this week, we did the erm......I don't know what that was. But we had to make a box using the art block. So, we were in the process of making the box.
TADAA!
Fishy & Leon. LOL
And then we had to cut out pictures and words from some old magazines & paste it on the outside & inside of the box. What's outside represents the face/mask that we present to the world. Or what we wish to be. And what's inside? You know what. The Shadow. X]
Done! Mine's with the word "FIGHT".Don't really know why I pasted that.
Foodie Foodie!
Hmmm
What did I paste on the inside of the box? That's a secret that I'll never tell. XOXO. LOL. Wtf. That's SO GG. Wee!!!!! Going to get it from Sharon!
LOL! JiaJia's. Pour some ashes into the box, shove in 3 joss sticks & you know what!
Next activity, Rorschach Inkblot Test [RIT]. Water colour! Can't wait! XD It's like we all traveled back in time to our primary school ages. =)
JoJo drew this. -,- Because of the FB quiz [How well do you know me]. One of the questions was like, I secretly would like to be a ____ for a day. He picked LION! -,- After our Sociology lecture, when we were getting ready to dash back for a nice, relaxing bath & a good rest,,,,,, some of our seniors came in & told us that they're doing an experiment on the effects of frequent exposure to violent movies on the level of desensitization & emotional reactions.
HORROR MOVIE! OMG!
Of course, we stayed back to watch it! =D The title was 'Hostel'! DAN DAN DAN DAAAN!~ Aiyo, nothing scary at ALL. Not about ghosts. This movie, --> Sex, obscene scenes, nudity, tits, asses, stupidity, blood, body parts, human trafficking, cruelty, heartless, hilarious, psychotic, suicide, chop chop chop...... The words 'fuck' & 'fucking' are uncountable. It was like "Fucking this, Fucking that!" And also lots of "fucking" going on. Lol. You watch, you pay! DAMN HEIGHTENED! You'll feel the euphoria when you watch it! High betul. XD Oopssssssssss. [I DON'T MEAN THE SEX SCENES OKAY!] It's the parts where these maniacs kidnap people & chop them into pieces. These NAKED HOT CHICKS in Slovakia lure these foreigners into it. They get $$ for doing that! Even the choppers! Wee!! I want to chop some fingers too!!!! Btw, it has nothing to do with the hostel! I mean, there's something connected but, still it didn't really take place in the hostel. Lol.
What's most important is the FREE SNACKS!
TyanTyan, MinMin *shudders*, RenRen, HaoHao and SentSent. *GOOSEBUMPS* Don't call me LiLi! -,-
SHOW TIME SHOW TIME!! =DMust watch! There's also Part II!
OMG! I'm so addicted to GD's Butterfly ♥ The MV is cute! =D
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Things are meaningless until you give meaning to it. This is so true. It's not the thing or the situation that happened matters. It's how you perceive it. No matter how bad a situation is, we can look at the brighter side of it. Laugh it off and take it as a life lesson. But sometimes, it's only easy to say. Having the courage to do and adopt this optimistic behaviour is difficult. Perhaps I take everything or shall I say every word too personally. Yea, even though sometimes they don't mean it. NO. Mean it or not, I still take it seriously & P-E-R-S-O-N-A-L-L-Y. Whenever Ms Caren mentions the word "only child", people tend to look and point their finger at me. Excuse me, whether it is a bad intention or whatever I feel discriminated okay! And stop calling me a baby!!!!!! -,- Yea yea.According to Adler's Theory of Birth Order, the only child is always the center of attention, spoiled & can be self-centered. Urgh! Helloo!! I didn't choose to go this way alright! Too much attention? Checked. [I obviously didn't beg my parents for this] Spoiled? Checked. [But I'm not as demanding as other people okay] Self-centered??! Hell NO! [But in some situations, I have to be selfish in order to save myself from being more miserable]
But I agree with some of the points mentioned in his theory. =( Being the only child, they miss out on the social skills learned by sibling interaction, so they may find it difficult to share or compromise & less effective in relationships. This proposed relationship results in poorer mental health. =( HOWEVER, a great positive trait is that they can be very mature intellectually. [Don't play play]
Surveys of literature predating 1945 emphasized the abnormality of only children's familial situation and risk of lifelong unhappiness and psychopathology. =( However it was acknowledged that not much research followed individuals into adult life to determine if possible effects of being raised as a sole child has any lasting consequences. [HAH! >.>] Some research indicates that only children who attempt to fulfill all their parents' expectations are retarded in developing adulthood autonomy and are less independent than any other birth order. This may be especially true of female only children who are traditionally expected to be more involved with their parents across the lifespan. -,-
Okay okay. Stop hitting myself with the bad stuff. Time to sleep. Got a date with the pig tomorrow. But someone asyik Korean gurls Korean Gurls ajer. Hmph! I have Korean guys also. Tae Yang! Hot Hot Hot! *scream* Okay. Enough. Chiao.
I feel so tired. I feel restless. I feel useless. I feel old. I feel my spirit fading day by day. I feel spiritless. I feel like a dead body. I feel like life is merely a struggle. I don't have the energy to do anything. I am not motivated. I get frustrated over something easily. I annoy everyone. I bore everyone.
Everyone's irritated. Exasperated. -------------------------------------------------- High expectations. Extra effort. Work hard or lose it all. Regret is not entertained. Fear. It's pressure. -------------------------------------------------- People. Faces. Genuine. Fake. Pompousness. Selfishness. Unthoughtful. Attention. Differences. Gossips. Never judge a book by its cover. Some act superior. Some control. Some attack. Some retaliate. Some hide. Some judge. Some act. I'm behind a mask and shall never reveal. I insult to defend. It's not my intention. Sorry to those offended. -------------------------------------------------- Words kill. Offended. They didn't know. -------------------------------------------------- As for now, I'll act stupid and shut my mouth until I have to open it. Oh wait. I always keep my mouth shut. Don't I? Hmmmmmm. Annoying? -------------------------------------------------- Define LIFE.
Here comes the complains again. If you can't stand it, leave.
After 2 days of suffering in the dorm, I finally get to go out! First of all, the quality of the food in the hostel's canteen is definitely deteriorating! As in REALLY sucky. Doing their job with zero quality. The dust in my room is causing my allergies to attack again. [Even after cleaning, the dust is still there] So now, I'm sneezing the shit out of me and the dustbin is full of my *! My nose is on a marathon yo!
And one thing I hate the most is the filthy bathroom! EEEWWWWW!!!! Dirt and hair everywhere! Which grosses me the most!
Seriously, I hate seeing strands of tangled hair especially on wet floor. Totally disgusting! Even when I'm wearing my flip flops, I just couldn't step on it. GROSS.
Hair. Which means I also hate wig. After watching a movie called 'The Wig', wigs freak me out even more. [Michelle Yap, where's my DVD huh?] Hair extensions are worse! Wigs and extensions makes me puke! Yea. Psychotic. SO!
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So, today's the first day of Co-cu. It was okay. It was kind of fun. But hell lot of confusion! [If you know what I mean] LOL But someone kind of D. =[ By the way, Wednesdays are my off days. No boring classes! *Cheers*
Okay, I know. I'm always complaining and complaining about the hostel and mostly about everything. BUT! I don't give a damn about it! I have the rights right? WHAT-ever.....
Okay, so here I am. Going online at Startbucks, Borders @ Gardens. Peaceful enviroment. Quiet and you can actually feel serenity here. Syok-ness. =D
Mom and I had pedicure @ Nail Studio before dinner. My first time, of course. I didn't want to do it previously because I was damn afraid of people touching my feet. [Another psycho behaviour of mine] I hate it. But after trying it, it was okay actually. Not that ticklish. LOL!
Diggin' something out. Yeaaa. Gross. Farny laaa.
Looks like the one before but this is even red. RED HOT CHILLI RED! Oo! The massage was good by the way!
Drawing the white rose on mom's big fat toe. =D
Lol. Sama-sama red red.
After that, Japanese food @ Yuzu. YUM!
Chawamushi! FAV! ♥
Steamboat!!
Nice! Only mushrooms, vege, tofu, fish and carrots! Simple, clear & satisfying.
The soup was the best! ♥
Green Tea Ice Cream! Double YUM! ♥♥
Next, Kampachi @ Pavillion. Or Angus Steak House perhaps? Both. =D
Have I gone cuckoo? Why did I join that club? What has gotten into me? Omg! There's no turning back. Even if there is way, I don't know how?! =O Fat people like me don't *. Imagine a pig *. No way! I'll be the laughing stock. Like seriously. People went *speechless* when I said I decided to join *. Bad sign. It must be like "WTF! You join *!" If it isn't for that 2 god damn credit hours, I wouldn't join ANYTHING! Maybe I should have joined * instead. Omg. She's going to kill me if she reads this. *If you know who you are* >< Chill. We'll go through it somehow? O.o? Hmmmm.
Sometimes Most of the time I feel like I always make the wrong decision, in any aspect. I always pick the wrong thing! Wrong choice, wrong stuff!Especially while shopping. It's like something else possessed me and lead me to buy stuff that I tend to regret later on. Why?! Damn stupid. Shopping is a DANGEROUS activity for the poor, like me! Therefore, I've decided to restrict myself from buying stuff. It's not like I can find the size of the clothes that I adore. Never going to shop for clothes. At least not-so-perfect-figure people can pamper themselves with pretty shoes. I can't! =[ No clothes, no shoes! What a great life?!
I didn't really shop for months until yesterday! Woohoo! That's a great accomplishment! Hmm. I've never been a shopoholic anyway. But this means I have been wearing the same outfits for months. Years! Disastrous!Nahhh. I don't really care about fashion. Never my passion. I don't have the will and CASH to keep myself updated with the latest trends. Plus, there's no way I can fit into the latest & coolest garment, right? Agreed. It's always those comfy jeans and tee. Shorts sometimes. Always casual. What a passé, ay?! No. Conventional I would say.
Anyway, I just bought a pair of flatties. No biggie. I had to coz my other two pair of sandals have opened their mouth! HORRIBLE! See. How poor I am! =[ Poverty-stricken. Okay not that serious. But still, I'm poor. =[ Anyway, I need comfy flatties due to my oh-so-pathetic big feet! Need to seek therapy. -,- For more sensible and virtuous decision making skills. Gosh! Pathetic much. Counseling student asking for professional help. Erm, we're humans too, right?
*cough cough* Gone too far. Back to main topic. Well, as for this case, I hope I've made the right choice. I don't want to make a fool out of myself. Please.
Yada yada. Today, stayed at home once again. It's exasperatingly tedious and monotonous you know! I mean like DAMN! My life pattern is like ---------------------------- while others are like ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
First week of Sem 2 is like. It's like. HELL! Excruciating! ✖ Classes canceled on the first day! As expected. ✖ Blur lecturer. ✖ Lecturer who can't get her mouth to shut. ✖ Self-declared holiday. =X *Okay not so hell but hell* Don't get it? Never mind.
I'm supposed to switch back to the study mode. But why is everyone still on holiday mode? That includes me. Even though I don't fancy holidays. Unless I have interesting stuff to do.
What else? O yea! Damn SSH! Always altering the timetable! HELL-o! Don't you have a system?! What if I've signed up for Cocu and the TT changed and one of the classes clashes with Cocu?! O wait! That could happen! =X *Touchwood* I'm going to fuck them up if this really happens. For as long as I've been living on this planet, I've never been lucky in all these. There'll always be a problem for me. Thank you. Mom always blames me for being so emotional and her so-called-gothic-attitude. She said I'm always attracting negative energy, inviting evil and that's the reason why I'm always unlucky in everything I do. Uh hellooo! Urgh! I'm speechless.
I have crapped enough. Back to my chores. Life! At least I'm going out tomorrow! Sorority Row with the kid! =D Think of the bright side. Be positive. Cheer up! Chill Devil. Keep your horns.
I'm Just aN OrD!naRy GuRl fR0m PlaN3+ 3aR+h ❣ Not in+eres+ing ❣ No+ RomaN+iC ❣ I don'+ haV3 +he l00k ❣ I'm fat & shor+ ❣ I'm w3!rD ❣ I'm a P3Ss!m!s+ ❣ I'v3 c#aNg3d A LOT ~No BiGGie..❣
'HoRr0r' iS mY M!dDl3 Nam3 ❣ I LOV3 the DARK !+ g!v3s M3 P3ac3 & S3r3n!+Y ❣
I'll sAy wha+3v3r I wan+ +0 say & wr!+e wha+3v3r I wan+ +0 wr!+3 Feel offended, resented or displeasured? I don't give a Damn
X)
REVENGE IS ALWAYS SWEET
I dare not post the large size one. For some reason. LOL
